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I have had a deep love for children with Down Syndrome for as long as I can remember. I never wanted to "have" children. I always thought I would adopt many these special children. I was adopted by my step-dad so I am familiar with adoption. I thought it would be a "natural" way for me to have children. Fast-forward twenty some-odd years, I have 3 children and none are Down children and none are adopted.
After we started having children, I think I expected one of them to have DS, just because of my love for them. I have never had any tests during pregnancy for fear of having a Dr tell me that something was "wrong" with my child. They might think it odd if I was excited about having a child with DS. I almost pine for them when I see them. I always make a point to smile at them and their parents. I hope they can see my love in that smile.
Anyway, after reading a blog or two about adoption I was led to Reece's Rainbow site. Oh MY! I have a new favorite blog to visit! I am adding their "Child of the week" button on my blog. Expect to see many additions about these beauties. I dream of being able to take one of these precious gifts out of an orphanage or mental facility. If Father told me to, I would be on the road of adoption in a heartbeat.
How hard is it to want to do something that in essence is good, although you do not have permission from the Father? I mean who would say ~ "You should leave that child in that impoverished country." or "What are you thinking?" Sometimes God does. Sometimes, he wants us to take care of this or that and NOT take on the challenge of DS or adoption, because HE has a plan and this may not be part of it.
Do you have a dream that you cannot persue? Do you long for something that just never seems to be within reach? Now you know mine.... I will obediently wait for what Father has for my future. The trials and learning I will do with each of the precious gifts I already have. Should he choose me for the task of parenting a DS child... Bring it on! Here I am Lord, send me. If He does not choose to expand this family, I will love them (DS children) from afar... and enjoy every minute with my precious babies, because He knows best!
